I knew I must read this book. Both Trisha and Belinda recommended it and now I understand why. Joan Didion lost her husband suddenly to a heart attack. She tracks the impact of grief through a year after this event and I find many things I am going through to be similar to her experiences. It's … [Read more...]
End of year 2018
I think I've been a bit behind posting about things, particularly about my very awesome kid. I am super proud of him and would like to tell you all about his honouring ceremony which actually happened back in November. Also a bit of news about our holiday. They have a very special event at his … [Read more...]
Grief and Guilt
Grief is a strange emotion. It enters unexpectedly and it comes mixed up with other emotions. It doesn't begin and end in one place but is something to be endured, to become a part of and grow through. It's a horrible thing but it's also a necessary thing. When I was going back and forth between … [Read more...]
Eulogy for Brett Step
Brett passed away on 10 October 2018. The funeral took place a week later. This is the eulogy I read in celebration of his life. Brett always told me that if anything ever happened to him, I could have his TVs. The irony is I don’t know how to work his TVs. I don’t know how to do life without … [Read more...]
A One Sided Conversation – Or is it?
Having a one sided conversation is very draining. When you do all the talking, and you don't get a response. This is how it's been for the past three months, talking to my husband. I can tell him all the things I want to, but he can't join the conversation. He would move his eyeballs a bit in … [Read more...]
How to make a toy rocket that blasts off!
This is a really fun activity for little boys who love rockets. It is easy to make and a lot fun when it blasts off! This week my mom has been away and the neighbour has been visiting in the evening to look after Nicky while I go to the hospital. She also is a mom of a boy, although hers is a lot … [Read more...]
Two Months on in Hospital
Yesterday was the 23 August. It marked two months since Brett has been in ICU. Two months where everything has been turned upside down in my life. One of the things lately that has been bothering me the most is that I am feeling the time passing. The lady that had a bad birth and was in ICU, … [Read more...]
Falling apart while being held together
I'm not sure if that title really makes sense but it sure feels like my life at the moment. While my life falls apart as my husband lies in hospital, I'm finding the most incredible support from the people around me. I'm so grateful, in the midst of tragedy, how I'm being lifted up and held together … [Read more...]
My husband had a stroke. And it’s a bad one.
It's taken me a week to write a blog post about this. It's something very hard to come to terms with, but I'm getting there. My husband is in ICU, attached to a ventilator. He had a stroke last Saturday. And because of that, everything is different. Last Friday everything was so normal. I did the … [Read more...]
Nicholas turns Six: Hot Wheels Party at the Junior Traffic Centre
Nicky has wanted a Hot Wheels party for a long time so we made that desire a reality at his sixth birthday party. He loves those cars so much and enjoys rolling them all over the house and building tracks everywhere too. We also decided to have the party at the Junior Traffic Centre near us since we … [Read more...]