Happy New Year!

I was also super lucky to visit Caren Bestbier, the Tappy Teddy lady. We had a really good time together, tapping and chatting. I think one of the most profound things she said to me that I have taken with me into the New Year, is that I need to give, in order to receive. So it has really inspired me to make my EFT Fertility product and help others, even though I haven’t received my miracle, yet. Yet.

My mom is on a mission to save the world. I think if she could live “off the grid” she would. They now have solar power on the roof and a water tank. As much as I admire her tenacity, it gets embarrassing when she insists on flushing the toilets with buckets. This is because the region is having a drought, but still, it is so incredibly gross. One thing I do admire though is her herb garden. I’d like to see if I could grow herbs too, although my track record is bad for even managing to keep pot plants away. Of the two recent pot plants I received I’ve already killed one. Sigh.

We then loaded up the caravan with gifts and luggage and off we drove to East London. Four hours later we arrived at the caravan park. We then went off to Brett’s sister, where we stayed for the rest of the time. I must say that this family sure can cook. We sat down to a sumptuous meal that evening.

People have pretty much not questioned us about our childless state, which I really appreciate, so it was kind of a surprise as we sat down to eat to be given the third degree by her husband.

“So what is happening with your adoption?”

Awkward silence. Eventually: Me: “The whole thing didn’t work out..” Brett: “We’ve put it on the backburner for now…” and then Me: “I haven’t yet given up on having a baby biologically yet; don’t want to give it up yet…”

“Have you been anointed by a minister?”

Gulp. Didn’t see that one coming. Although, the family is pretty religious and he does preach every now and then. So actually, I should have seen it coming.

There wasn’t much else to do than say.. “No, we haven’t. Although we certainly have done a lot of praying…” With this I helped myself to some of the food. Sigh. One of my new year’s resolutions is to get to church more often.

Well, the rest of the holiday was basically filled with food and family. We spent time with the various relatives in various activities. And their kids. My hubby is the youngest of four kids and all his siblings have kids. Here’s a pic – you can see me with my foot on the one side.

Oh, and if you’re wondering how it went with the “merging of the families” it went pretty well. Although some of the family were still arguing like it was going out of fashion, they confined these activities to when my parents were safely separate in their caravan park. Whew. My mom also made them all gifts of the various herbs from her garden, which was nice.
Happy New Year!

Well… a new year stretches before us, just like a new seeding needing growth and nourishment. (Like my picture?)

Here are some resolutions. I saw a good status on Facebook the other day which says: “We spend January 1 walking through our lives, room by room, drawing up a list of work to be done, cracks to be patched. Maybe this year, to balance the list, we ought to walk through the rooms of our lives… not looking for flaws, but for potential.” Ellen Goodman

So here are my areas of potential:

1. Finding Fertility:

Last year I learnt a lot of lessons. So everything I’ve learnt will only help me step forth into a better place. I’m off to learn new things and try some new stuff too. I’ve put together a meal plan from Cindy Bailey’s fertile kitchen and have already cooked one meal (the lamb roast – nice for Sundays – delicious). I’m also going to see a homeopath I’ve been recommended. My goal at the moment is to fatten myself up before April (because of last year losing so much weight when I tried to eat fertility friendly) so that by the time I cut out sugar and caffeine by then, I’ll be ready. Line this up with vitamins and acupuncture, so that, money willing, I’ll do another IUI in August. Well, that’s the plan. We’ll see what happens.

2. Be a better teacher. I am going to draw up a “first day blast” with offences and consequences for my kids so that they know I’m serious and I hope to God that I can really be better at disciplining them. I also need to keep triple checking everything I send out so that I don’t make the stuff ups I did last year.

3. Try and relax. This I will do while listening to circle and bloom, tapping up a storm with this new program I’m creating. If I am in a better place emotionally, I know I will be able to give more, to everyone around me, especially my dearest hubby. I know this whole thing about “just relax” is pretty irritating to all of us, but if I get back into going to gym, pray and do all this stuff … hang on… I’m starting to listen to myself and this doesn’t sound very relaxing… maybe the irony is, if I’m “letting off steam” in these various activities, I can create a space for relaxation? Well, here’s hoping…

Oh well that’s all from me for now.