What do you do if your future is unwritten? If you make some tentative plans but aren’t quite sure how the whole thing is going to pan out? If you’re somewhat stuck, but wanting to be unstuck too? It all comes down to trust, my friends. Trusting that God has the best plan, even if I might not be able to see it just yet.
Nicky has a beautiful memory verse this week: “See, I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared.” Exodus 23:20.
I’m quite convinced that the angels are helping me along the way although I’m not sure about the place to where I’m going to.
One of these angels is the estates lawyer. She is just brilliant. So down to earth and helpful. I’ve been working with her on the problem of Brett not having a will and we are slowing getting things 
together. On Saturday I closed his accounts and that’s all done now. His wallet is now officially empty: the cards are cut. It’s over.
For extra angelic input I even visited an angel reader to get some input. And funnily enough this word “Trust” kept coming up.
If you TRUST.. the money will come
If you TRUST… love will come
Raphael and Micheal are the angels busy with Nicky and myself to heal over this time, and I’m grateful that there’s lots of spiritual power at work in our lives.
In other news the pool pump completely broke down. I sold most of Brett’s camera equipment to pay for it! But I’d rather have a 
functioning pool than camera stuff. I find swimming very therapeutic, cooling and calming. I do laps and Nicky jumps in and bobs up and down. His new thing is to swim under me. Very cute.
Songs and poems have been very meaningful to me over this period of my life and I just thought I would share some of my journey. As I’ve been driving around, listening to the radio, there are certain songs that have been the soundtrack to my life:
At the time of the stroke: Solo – it was a lonely time and a big shock
I never meant to do the worst thing
Not to you (this solo, solo, everybody)
I wish I wasn’t one of your exes
Now I’m the fool (this solo, solo, everybody)
I’ve been dancing on my own
There’s boys up in my zone
But they can’t turn me on
‘Cause baby, you’re the only one I’m coming for
I can’t take no more, no more, no more
Somewhere in the crowd
In a foreign place
Are you happy now?
There’s nothing left to say
So I shut my mouth
So won’t you tell me, babe
Are you happy now?
Leave me just as empty as the day you came
And you hold all the cards, all the broken hearts
Strung over your shoulder till it’s all in vain
The wash in the weight of your pockets, so deep
And lonely
But a slow glowing dream
That your fear seems to hide
Deep inside your mind
Silent tears full of pride
In a world made of steel
Made of stone
Close my eyes, feel the rhythm
Wrap around
Take a hold of my heart
Bein’s believin’
I can have it all
Now I’m dancing for my life
And make it happen
Pictures come alive
You can dance right through your life
Lean not on your own understanding
In all of your ways acknowledge him
And he will make you paths straight
He’s got it under control
Just trust in the lord with all of your heart
And he will carry you through
Heather, it is good that you are looking forward, making plans. I often think about you and Brett and Nicky. Trust is a good word. Mine is Patience.
Thank you so much for your kind words. Yip patience is another one….
You are brave, courageous and lovingly held by the angels, as is Nicky. May your path through 2019 be filled with unexpected moments or joy and peace.